Question Series: Week #1: What if Jesus reads my blog?

I had never been on a roadtrip like the one my husband and I took with our friend and mentor, Monty. It was several years ago, and I remember it vividly. We were driving along, somewhere between the Ozarks and Music City, USA, when Monty informed us that anyone that rode anywhere with him would have to answer some questions. Little did we know how much he meant it. (We quickly found out.) For the next two hours, we answered questions ranging from pretty simple (If you could have any other name, would name would you have?) to quite complex (If you could commit any sin if it weren’t a sin, what would it be?) Monty asked a lot of questions on that trip. And we did a lot of thinking. Sure, we could have talked about our summer plans or the best places to get a really good latte, but instead, we talked about life. We raised issues that got us past the surface and forced us to set up camp inside our souls. And it created intimacy between us.

I have since realized how important asking questions are.

Questions lead to soul searching. Questions make us hit pause on our life lived at light speed and force us to think about things we care about. Whether the questions are asked to others or to ourselves, asking questions is important. Not always easy, by the way, but important.

For that reason, I have decided to devote the next 3-4 Mondays to some questions that are on my mind. My hope in doing this is to get you to begin to ask questions of yourself…if not about this issue I raise with myself, maybe something else. Regardless, I challenge you to ask yourself at least one soulful question, today.

So for this week, my question to myself is: “What if Jesus reads my blog?”

I’ve been thinking a lot about it these past 24 hours. Ok…so…theology aside, I’m not sure how much Jesus cares about blogging. I’m not sure what He thinks about it in the first place. I know He cares about me and all the details of my life, including what I do with my time, but…I’m not sure if He’s actually stopping by on Monday mornings for my weekly post.

But for the sake of argument, let’s just say He is.

I wonder what He thinks of it.

This being my 73rd post, I know He’s read much of my opinion by now. In the past 10 months I have been blogging, I’ve shared some prayer concerns, some life lessons and some non-essentials along the way. I’ve blogged my thoughts…burdens…maybe even gone off on a few tangents.

But this morning I just have to wonder…if Jesus is reading my blog, is He pleased with it? Really…truly?

Because I am a person who likes visuals, I just have to picture the scene as I see it.

His Heavenly gaze is on my fingers as they type words to share with people who come by to read, some of whom I do not know and maybe will never physically see in this lifetime. He waits, praying as I type that my flesh will not get in the way and that my heart will be in the right place to deliver His message. He trusts that I will share about things that truly matter, that have eternal significance. He prompts and hopes that I will pay attention. And then He reads.

Is He pleased?

I hope so.

Do I represent Him well, or do I desire to just represent myself?

I hope not.

These are things I want to know.

Friends, please hear my heart. Know that I believe that Jesus is completely interested in every aspect of my life. I believe He is glorified when I share testimony of His goodness and faithfulness to me, even if its in sharing about a beautiful day spent at the lake with my family.

Which is why I can blog about these things every now and then.

But in the depth of my soul, I feel responsible with the time I invest in this blog and the things I ask people to spend their time reading about when they come to this blog. I may not be everyone’s style or taste, and that’s ok. But if I’m really honest with myself, I have to admit that I can’t buy into thinking that any of you who read this blog are really in need of my opinion. And I doubt you need to know much about my social calendar. The truth is, there are far more interesting people in the world to know about than me, if that’s what you’re after.

But if I truly believe that everything in my life centers around Jesus Christ and the charge He has put out there for me to share His message, then my blogging leads me to one sole purpose…

With every word I type, to shout His fame.

Ya’ll, I’m not interesting enough.

I’m not important enough.

I’m not wise or insightful enough.

I admit -- it’s hard to make a blog written by me not about me. But I want to try.

Because at the end of the day, if He is reading my blog, I want Him to be pleased with what He reads.

Which brings me back to my original question: If Jesus Reads My Blog, What Does He Think?

I’m not sure. I think I might ask Him.

A little intense for a Monday morning?

That’s what asking questions will do to ya.

Lisa