My friend, Kris.

I wrote about my friend, Kris, for the first time over two years ago. You can read more about him HERE. With the family representative's permission, I share my thoughts about Kris upon his passing.

My friend, Kris, is being remembered today, as his 2-year struggle with cancer came to an end on Wednesday. It was a well-fought, difficult journey, and he finished the race with his family by his side. With the news being so fresh on my mind, I find it one of my toughest writing assignments yet to put something meaningful down on paper…yet I feel compelled to share my heart.

Kris’s battle with cancer touched me in a way I didn’t expect. For one thing, when the diagnosis first happened, I didn’t know him all that well. He had been my husband’s friend for years, and that was our strongest connection. But we had never had dinner together or vacationed as couples or even, had more than a few brief meetings with firm handshakes and smiles. But when I heard about his diagnosis, it had immediate impact. Thankfully, we were able to spend a small bit of time together in the months to follow, which my husband and I both hold dear.

Since that time I have asked myself why his story has had such an effect on me. I have literally stayed up some nights, praying for Kris and thinking of his family ahead of my own. Through this experience, I have learned how to pray for something consistently, and how the ties of prayer bind hearts and lives together in a unique way. Certainly, this has been a huge factor in my heart’s investment in Kris and his journey.

But in evaluating why Kris’s journey has had such great impact on me over the past 24 months, I think I have come to some type of conclusion besides the obvious one. I believe it is because I have seen how one day he was a strong, vibrant working family man with a bigger-than-life personality… and the next day he was forced into the role of patient -- thrust into a world of doctors, treatments, and numbered days he never expected. His journey has reminded me of not only the brevity of life, but also the cruel realities sometimes life carries. Kris never stopped being strong, even though his body did. In my world, that strength should have allowed Kris to live, as it is certainly how he will be remembered. But that is not something anyone but God can control.

Several weeks ago I was sitting in a Dallas hotel room, preparing for a women’s event that night. I sat on the bed and tried to look over my notes, yet my mind was inexplicably consumed with thoughts of Kris and his family. I tried to push them aside for the moment, but they wouldn’t budge. I felt compelled to not only pray for Kris, but to write down some thoughts that were on my heart and mind. As I thought about the injustice of how his physical body was failing him, Jesus reminded me of the very temporary state all of us on this earth really live in.

Before I share these thoughts, I need you to know that I never stopped praying for Kris to be healed, even right to the final moments. For if sheer will were to determine the outcome, his death never would have been so. I hoped the words I penned in that Dallas hotel room would never have relevance to be shared. But I share them now, praying that they will touch someone’s heart and honor Kris’s life in some small way. His family will undoubtedly share the personal reflections they were privileged to enjoy with Kris; I can only share the things his journey helped me remember.


It was a temporary body he lived in. One day it was strong. The next day, it wasn’t.

One day it saw beauty and love. Smiles and tears. Laughter and rain. The next day, it didn’t.

One day it saw grass and trees, mountains and the sandy beach. The next day, it didn’t.

One day it saw joy and it saw pain. It saw life and it saw death. The next day, it didn’t.

That day, it saw something different.

Streets of gold. Crystal sea. A chorus of angels. Nail-scarred hands, eagerly outstretched and waiting.

Complete peace. Fulfilled purpose. Sacred love. Death to life. Earth to heaven.

And in his new body, he rested. Welcomed by the arms of a Savior. Never again to struggle. Free, full, whole and forever.

Eternally, home.

I pray these words serve as a reminder to all of us that we are not here forever, but only for a brief moment in time. I do not presume to know what is in the hearts of Kris’s family right now, but I can only suppose that the message of making the most of every moment you are given is something they would support. May all of us live with the understanding that our temporary selves are meant to represent something much richer, much better, and much more…eternal.

Thank you, Kris, for this reminder. Rest well, my friend, in your new eternal home.

love, give and be challenged: {my week in el salvador}

You may know that I just returned from an amazing week in El Salvador with Compassion, International. As I struggle to organize my thoughts into a blog, my mind wanders to a verse I came across this morning in Psalm 48:10, “As your name deserves, O God, you will be praised to the ends of the earth.” I watched that verse come alive last week, right before my very eyes. Really, I could end this blog right there, and part of me wants to.

Forgive me. I want to tell you so much more, but I find my head and heart in a jumble.

I could tell you about the first time I saw the children of the Compassion project and how from that moment on, I rarely stopped weeping. I could tell you what it felt like to see a young lady in her Sunday best, standing in the hot sun with a sign bearing my name, welcoming me in a way I didn’t deserve. I could tell you what it sounded like to hear American praise songs sung in words I didn’t recognize. Or what it meant to feel the sweet hand of a child on my head, petitioning my same Savior on my behalf.

I could tell you about the hospitality of people who have mud permanently tattooed into the cracks of their feet, seeing more pain in one day than my mind is able to adequately compute. I could tell you about the giving spirit of a little boy who may only eat a snack-sized meal a day, yet gleefully gifted me with a bag of his favorite tortilla chips.

I could tell you about the humility of people who don’t carry around feelings of entitlement. I could tell you about believers who don’t use filters, politically correct phrases or Christian lingo to convey how they feel. I guess they’ve found that those things aren’t needed to communicate gratitude, love or Jesus. Who knew?

I could tell you about a ministry organization that exudes the Great Commission. I could tell you about some of the finest people I have ever met in my life, starting with the staff and stretching to the ones they most effect. I could tell you about the local pastors who aren’t celebrities, don’t sell thousands of books, and couldn’t care less. I could tell you about the local translators who felt like long-lost siblings within the first 24 hours of our meeting – people I loved so much I wanted to throw in my suitcase and bring home with me to insert into my daily life. If I were allowed to be as selfish as I wanted to be, I would have.

I could tell you about a young man named Nixon, a product of the Compassion project, who preached one of the best sermons I ever heard. Or a drama put on by a group of unashamed teenagers about the death and resurrection of Jesus Christ, without the flash of American church passion plays but I dare say with greater effectiveness.

I could tell you about the beautiful girl in the white shirt/black skirt uniform who prayed in a way that stirred my bones to a place of sweet revival. When I told her how her prayer moved me she answered simply, “Thank you. Jesus put it in my heart.” Well, now. Is that how that thing works?

I could tell you this and more, but the stories are too many and too much. I’m quite certain I wouldn’t do them justice until I can unpack them a little more in my own mind. But of this you can be sure: what I saw last week was real. Real faces. Real lives. Real needs. The children I saw are not just images on cardboard cards. They exist. I know, because I met them.

So as I continue to process my week, thank you for your patience. But today, there is something I long for you to know.

This week was a week of personal challenges for me – to test what I thought with a potential to experience something more authentic. To some, this test might seem small. To others, it may seem enormous. I don’t care about the judgments on either side – all I know is that I went toe to toe with my fears and ignorance, and I didn’t back down. I met a personal challenge, and I won.

Which leads me to my exhortation.

Don’t be afraid of your challenge in life, whatever it is. Look it in the face and defy it. Embrace it. Own it. Live it, and let it move you to a new place of personal and spiritual discovery. Love it or hate it, you can either challenge it or it will challenge you. Challenge it, and you will win…no matter what the outcome. Because in the process, you will see with eyes of purpose and feel with new waves of passion.

You can wait, sit and wish. You can wonder what it feels like to regain a spiritual pulse. You can watch while someone else comes to a place of understanding that could be yours, if only you were willing to stop being afraid of what you don’t know.

I can’t tell you what to do, and I know you don’t want me to. All I can say is that it is my strongest belief that you find yourself in the midst of your greatest challenge.

The people of the Compassion project in El Salvador taught me that this week. If I already knew it, they made it more real. Though sheer existence is their greatest challenge, in some ways, that may just be their greatest gift. Certainly, their souls are richer than most.

Because of this I wholeheartedly say: may we follow their example and live to love, give, and be challenged.

To find out more about sponsoring a child or the Compassion project, click on THIS LINK.

Letting Go of Goodbye

So, I wrote about goodbyes this week over at SHE SEEKS. Some of you may have come from there. Others may want to pop over after finishing this blog.

It’s not a topic I love, but it is a topic that is important. I mean, we can pretend that life is not full of goodbyes, but at some point we understand that it is…and we learn to deal with it.

I don’t love goodbyes (most of the time), but I have come to accept them as a part of my life, for the rest of my life.

I won’t rehash what I’ve already written about goodbyes HERE, but what I will say is that it seems that when we don’t practice acceptance of this life reality, a kind of clinging-thing goes on in our heart. Left alone, that clinging-thing can turn into a real spirit of defensiveness where we shy away from investing in people and things we feel we may someday lose.

We feel that the risk may be too high to fully give our heart to something we don’t know the outcome of…so we hold back just enough to preserve it.

But in the process, we don’t get the full experience of life, which includes love, loss, and often…letting go.

I encourage you today to resist the urge toward heart preservation if it means you don’t take a risk to love big, dream big or fully invest. If the time comes for you to say goodbye to that love, dream or investment, you can do so knowing it wasn’t because you didn’t give it all you could.

And you can do so knowing that clinging to anything but Jesus never really works, anyway. It is exactly the way this life thing is supposed to be.

Relentlessly Challenged

If there’s one thing I’ve learned over the past year of my life, it’s that I don’t want to live my life without a challenge.

Even as I write those words, I struggle to acknowledge them, simply because I am not ignorant to what that may mean.

Disappointment.

Hard work and effort.

Being stretched beyond comfort.

Going places that feel scary and unfamiliar.

But while those things sound definitively unappealing, I also recognize them to be both necessary and inevitable on the spiritual journey. In other words, they come with the territory.

I can wish for a day off from these things, but the truth is, I’ve had lots of days…months…years off in my life as a believer. I’ve done my time on the sidelines.

And I know from experience how it feels to spend chunks of time without doing much of anything for God and experiencing the feelings to match. Looking back, it’s in those moments I’ve felt most desperate to hear from Him.

My experience with this has been sometimes confusing, and I myself could not explain why I felt most desperate when the waters were eerily calm and steady. I readily admit that there have been moments in my life where I’ve asked God to give me a few months, a couple of weeks, or even 10 minutes without providing me with a challenge. After coming out of ones that almost swallowed me whole, I have to be honest and say that I wasn’t altogether jazzed about jumping right back into a pool of difficulty.

But the truth is, I have never really wanted Him to take me up on that. Because the few times He has, I lived with the feeling that I was missing something. And it is not a feeling I enjoyed.

I've concluded that it must be a result of that proverbial “something” within us that desires more – the something that drives even the most challenge-resistant among us to crave a little water agitation in our life if it means we have a chance at some real life purpose.

In our fearless moments, we see its worth and run towards it.

In our conservative moments, we bolt the opposite way at the mere thought.

And though many of us like to civilize Christianity and tuck it into our safe little Jesus box, the reality is that the road of a follower of Jesus Christ should and will never be completely safe, predictable and self-managed. We’d prefer it, but it’s not possible.

And so all of us have to come to the point in our life and on our spiritual journey where we begin to make a shift. It is where we go from the point of desiring comfort, civility and smooth paths over passion, purpose and glorious unpredictability…to realizing that the only thing we cannot live without is the all-consuming presence of God in our life every single minute -- not a house in a gated community, with an Excursion to carry our 2.5 kids and fluffy black maltipoo around in.

Believers, Jesus and His cause is not meant to be made modern to meet our calendared lifestyle. He did not die so that we could arrange our life to be as comfortable as possible and bring Him into the picture on an as-needed basis. Though we don’t like the discomfort being a follower of Christ brings sometimes, the fulfillment level is one that is unable to be unmatched by a life of no sacrifices.

See the value in following Jesus. Spend every moment running after more of Him. Don’t stop serving Him until you take your last breath.

And don’t forget to crave the challenge. If you deny it, it will either die within you or consume you to the point where you have to answer to it.

The God call is relentless that way.

His, not mine.

Sometimes, God gently speaks to me in the quietness of my heart. In those sweet moments it is a spiritual confirmation or sense of understanding I most feel, coming from Him. These are moments I crave, appreciate, and relish.

And then sometimes, He speaks differently to me. I affectionately call these my “jerk-a-knot-in-my-chain” moments, often brought on by my desire to take the lead in my life. These are the moments I feel the authority of God taking reign of my insides. I probably need them more than I seek them.

Such a moment happened to me over the weekend.

I was getting ready for an event, thinking about some circumstances in my life. Between the whining, lamenting and general internal dialogue in my head, God very specifically spoke to my heart and said…

“Why do you think you know better than I do about what you need for your life? I have protected you from things you thought you needed before when I knew things you couldn’t see. Trust me, Lisa. I know what I’m doing.”

Chain = jerked. Message = heard.

It’s funny how God always has a way of helping me remember that the strong hand I have placed my life in has not released His grip on me for a single second along the way. Making that fact even more remarkable is the reality of how often I try to squirm out of it to run my own course.

Sometimes, that reminder comes with that sense of understanding, love and confirmation, spoken gently to my heart. Other times, it’s with that directness I need to be reminded of the sovereignty of Someone other than me.

Either way, the message is still the same.

God is in control.

He knows what He is doing.

His ways are not my ways.

His ways are best.

To My Writer-Friends

Writer friends, here’s something you need to know…

If you are looking for approval, understanding or adoring fans, you are in the wrong field. In fact, you may want to stop writing right now.

If I have learned anything in the past 6 years of my writing ministry, it’s that every time I write, it will be read by 3 distinct kinds of people: someone who loves me; someone who has heard something about me; and someone who flat out doesn’t like me at all. In fact, the more I write, the more I find group # three grows.

When the critics increase, the tendency is to want to hold back the musings of our heart. Within the beauty of honesty comes the possibility of being misunderstood, judged or criticized. Sometimes the fear of that becomes a writer’s greatest obstacle and they loose the grasp of the raw feelings that made their writing real and relatable in the first place. Sadly, the noise of the critics has gotten into their head, causing them to hold back or doubt their gift.

But then there are those who push through and continue on. They are the ones who write with a purpose beyond needing to get their feelings off their chest. They are the ones driven by their passion for a cause or belief and the desire to help people live better; they are the ones who don’t write to have someone remember their name.

Those in this group are keenly aware that the words they use should be weighed and considered before using them. If they can’t own a word or explain it after it’s become visible, it has to be ditched.

Those who press on understand that the impact of their writing comes when people relate to them as real people with real struggles and real feelings. Wearing the role of a robot doesn’t require vulnerability and could prevent some hurt, but no one I know of has ever been inspired by a cold, pretend person with no soul.

So my writer friends…keep writing. Keep sharing your heart. Don’t be afraid of the critics. Understand that having people agree with you all the time is not the goal. If you have only fans, it is likely you are not as effective as you think you are.

Stir up your reader’s hearts, minds and souls and then show them what to do with that stirring. That's when your writing becomes relevant.

Thicken your skin without hardening your heart. {Tough, but vital.}

Keep your head down and your heart humble. The rest you can’t control.

Your gift is unique and special. Share it freely and don't be afraid of the risk.

What I'm Thinking About

I'm thinking about these things today…

Success.

Love.

Endurance.

Faith.

It’s funny how different these things are defined when circumstances vary.

For my friend with cancer, faith is about something different than it is for me, without it.

Those who don’t have a current large-scale life struggle likely see faith as an amazing Biblical concept that they secretly hope isn’t tested for them like it is in others. But then, as life produces unpredictability, faith becomes something more impossible to live without.

Endurance sounds awesome, in concept. Flashes of running through marathon tape and looking down from the peak of a massive mountain make for spectacular Hallmark-ish thoughts. Often motivated by the idea, we almost forget that sweat, blood and tears usually have to be shed before any glorious scene of triumph occurs.

And then there’s love.

It’s cool to be in love with someone when it feels good. What’s a whole lot harder is when it takes work and effort to keep that love going. Harder still is loving someone through darkness or pain, sorrow or complete ugliness. That’s love when it really counts.

Success is such a tough one. Really, it depends on what kind of outside noise you listen to, where your belief lies and how much you pursue what you were put on earth to do. It’s hard to see the success in a day you got to breathe when you are stuck on a failure you can’t seem to get past.

So, I’m thinking about these things today. Maybe I can get you to think about them, too.

Because I'm pretty sure our circumstances will, at some point, vary...causing our definitions of these things to drastically change.

That might not be a bad thing.